It's a New Year....

For the two people that ever read this you are probably wondering if I would ever come back. Here I am. I love my dear husband for what he wrote so beautifully last March. Sometimes I think "Did that really happen to us?" But, it did and I am still recovering. 2010 was a hard year. We found out in June that we were pregnant again. We were so excited and I was so nervous and so sick. One of the worst pregnancies. But, I felt like it was a good pregnancy because with the baby we lost in March I was not very sick at all. I was telling myself it was good to be sick. The baby was due on March 6, 2011... one year later to the day that baby Matthew was delivered. In Sept. I felt like I needed to go into the doctor and hear a heartbeat. The nurse practitioner couldn't find one so she told me to come in two days later when the doctor was in. Sept. 23 the doctor couldn't find a heartbeat, did an ultrasound and the baby had died. I was almost 16 weeks along. I had never felt so hopeless. I cried. I didn't want to get out of bed for two days. My kids cried and wondered why. Dave cried. It was a hard hard time. My sweet sister Monica came and stayed with Sarah and Ethan while we went to the hospital on Sept. 25. It was a different delivery than baby Matthew and we couldn't tell the sex of the baby, but we know that angel baby will always be ours.

Some really good things happened in 2010 too. Dave and I continued going to school all year. (well, Dave technically went all year. I took a summer break.) For Spring Break in March we went to Las Vegas for a few days and it was wonderful. I would highly recommend a trip to anyone who experiences a tragedy. We went back to Vegas the end of May because we had such a great time in March. (Amazingly, the weather in March was better than May).

Sarah turned 8 on May 30. She had a little party on the 29th with her friends Abbie and Savannah. We had pizza, strawberry shortcake and went swimming at the indoor pool in Lehi. I think she had a fun birthday. She is an amazing and beautiful little girl. She is so smart and so fun to be around. I love her so much. She got baptized on June 5 by her daddy. It was a beautiful day. I am so proud of her decision to get baptized. Sarah is a good girl. She always wants to do what is right and treats everyone around her with kindness. Her Grandma and Grandpa Hill, Aunt Monica, Uncle Tom, Merlin, Missy, Trevor, Aunt Brenda, Uncle Ryan, Aunt Minon, Tayman, Kyrsten, Kalysta, Brayden, Gavyn, Talya, Grandma Doerr, and Shelby all traveled long trips to come to her baptism. We were so happy and thankful to have them all here. I hope Sarah knows how much her family loves her. The Perrins' and her 2nd grade teacher Miss Macfarlane also came. We had a bbq at our house after and it was a hot day! Thankfully, Aunt Brenda invited us to her hotel pool to swim later that day. Sarah was baptized with five other kids from our ward, including her best friend Abbie Jackson. It was a great day. We also loved Aunt Minon and family and Grandma Doerr and Shelby stay for a few days at our house.

Ethan turned six on Aug. 13. He is always so anxious for his birthday because it is the "last one" of the year. He went bowling with his friends Riley, Dylan, Zach, Alaina, and Sarah. He was very happy that he won the game that day on his birthday. Ethan is a very competitive boy...it really breaks his heart to lose. He is very smart too and absolutely adorable. He was so excited to start first grade and go to school all day and eat lunch at school. If you know Ethan you know that he is a talker and we love every bit of him.

I guess the rest of the year was filled with school, softball, T-ball, soccer, wrestling, gymnastics, swimming, watching (and loving)BYU, trips to Grandma Doerr's for a week in the summer and for Christmas, and trips to Grandma Hill's for the fair in August and for Thanksgiving, and a hospital stay for Dave in Dec. with bronchiolitis(not fun and he is still not better). We have been blessed. I keep remembering the blessing my Dad gave me (and he often reminds me) that we will have more babies. I am thankful for everything I have and especially my testimony and my family. Families are Forever.